I WAS RAPED!

11th june 2004. tt's the day i had my 1st blood donation. being the main committee member of vibrant blood, i felt compelled (but was not compelled) to donate blood. after all it would seem right for the organiserz to be advocaters rite?
anywayz, wanted to try something new and this is a good chance isnt it?
besides so many of the organiserz r doing it, so i wont feel alone.
so there i was, walking towards meritus mandarin hotel. while taking the lift to level 8, i felt a tinge of regret even before anything had started haha. was wondering if i've made the right decision, pondering if i should turn back. but my feet took me to the registration. there i was encourged by fellow organiserz so there was no turning back (wat the heck, it wont kill me would it?)
so i took 2 stickers. being a 1st time donor, besides the "thank you" sticker, i got to stick on another which says " BE NICE TO ME -- THIS IS MY FIRST DONATION!" (how thoughtful...) which i fondly call "the virgin tag" (for virgin donors ie. 1st time donor lah!)





i was to fill up a tricky qnniare. there, i was beginninig to feel a little apprehensive n anguish. n the tricky qnnaire didnt help. also contains lotsa warning "sick" ppl against donating blood lest harming someone with their donated blood. ok i managed to get past tt stage without feeling any pain yet hehe



can u spot the virgin tag? yes its the one in blue with a pink heart!


then its more registration, followed by a check up by one of the 3 docs. i was lucky enough to be checked by the female doc (who was quite good looking actually hehe). heard tt got one male doc was known to be very strict. she was gentle n patient, routinely(expertly) pointing out some mistakes which i've made. apparently, some qns require a 'yes' answer in the midst of many 'no' qns (get wat i mean by a tricky qnnaire). hence i believe many ppl made the same mistakes of ticking no all the way. so she's like kinda expected the same few qns to be answered incorrectly and she zoomed in on them straight away to verify. for every change in ans i have to make, i need to sign by the change. in total, i made 5 signatures :P
(perhaps i really wasnt reading properly...lol)
again no pain felt here





next is the blood test. where they test ur blood grp as well as haemoglobin level, to c whether u have enough blood to give. 1st sign of pain as finger needed to be pricked to draw a blood sample "ouch!"
given a piece of cotton to hold on to the wound. but it still hurt after the blood on the wound dried up. ("Ouch! ouch! ouch!!!)
for a moment, was thinking, if blood test so painful aredi, isnt the actual donation process gonna be worse?!!?
the finger prick is something i experienced before (during making of ic, heb b testing etc), but somehow the procedure tt day seemed to hurt more than usual

then i waited as all the beds were filled then. finally, after abt 10 mins, i got my chance. there i was, still feeling upbeat and smiling! haha
strutting proudly into the room and onto the bed.
(flaunting my virgin tag at the same time haha)
hmm unfortunately, the nurse attending to me doesnt buy my brand of humour. she's got this spkiy hairstyle (she's female!) and with a no-nonsense look written on her face. despite displaying my virgin tag prominently, she treated me shabbily. not even showing a sign of concern or watsoever, no smile, no explanation of blood drawing procedure, no assurance, no nothing; felt hostile
n i can c the nurses at the beds on my left n right, both exuding TLC haha. then poor me, in the middle but facing a stone cold executioner. for goodness sake! this is my virgin donation! cant u treat me better?! cant u c my virgin tag?!
n there she was, destroying any hopes of a pleasurable n satisfying virgin fornication. abt 15 mins later, the bag was filled with blood... and i have lost my "virginity" in a cold and heartless way... *sobz*
hahaha





pain factor? lower than the finger prick! thru this virgin donation, i learnt tt actually local anaesthetic is administered to the bleeding area, hence u dont feel a thing when the blood is being drawn! the only pain is the anaesthetic injection itself. by comparison, urs truly felt tt the finger prick is still the most painful process in the entire blood donation procedure.



the yellow band warriors: guan kai, me, wei qing -- proud owners of the yellow bands


finally, its makan time as we were served refreshments like milo, fruit juice, biscuits. on top of tt, we also each received a goodie bag proudly sponsored by StarHub.
not a bad experience at all, save lives, free refreshments, goodie bag, and all done in the conducive environment of the Meritus Mandarin Hotel. what more can one ask for?

...perhaps a better nurse...

i feel bored...

went down to cine today again, hmm some how feel pretty sian after all go down like nothing much is of my concern. discussed the manpower plan n performance schedule though.

there, didnt click with anyone haah so funny. although know all of them but didnt tok much to them. it seemed so diff fr yesterday. yest were diff ppl with a few same though. but felt yest like more fun.

had a great time working with sihui. we were on top of our game in the afternoon getting ppl on the streets of cine to sign up with us to donate blood. then we break and had pies. rested for quite some time coz we were so tired on our feet for so long. after tt we didnt feel like working aredi hahaah. juz stand there n tok cock n beo ppl *oops haha*
until news of heeren getting 20+ got us working again hehe

cine is a smoking pot! turn 1 round n u can c 60% of the ppl smoking! turn a few more rounds n u c the same ppl lighting up another cigarette! really lotsa smokers there man. they smoke non stop! the air is filthy! choking! stand there 1 day very jialat sia.

whole day eat BK! breakfast, tea break n dinner! ahh.. but dont really have choice due to opportunity costs. but ok lah, still not sick of it yet. was my 1st time working with sihui. didnt tok to her while we had meetings coz seldom c her haha. didnt expect both of us to hit it off so well... we sort of can click, although we didnt tok tt much. at some pt in time yest, it suddenly hit upon us tt we seem comfortable with each other, (donno y though, juz the feeling)
actually the more i look at her, the more i find her cute hee.

today after dinner then discuss a little bit then can go aredi. felt bored though, didnt feel like going back to hall (again) yet. but yet feel tt cant stay out too long coz still got work to do back here. so was like wanna call ppl yet donwanna stay out too long... so pondering wanna call ppl anot... and who to call...
tot of someone but didnt call though... wanted to, but er didnt lah

as u can c, the template is different
somehow, the old one "disppeared" after i've made some changes
anyway this template would be temporary (its so ugly isnt it? )

havent blogged for a long time,

as u can c, no tagboard n no enetation, but not equal to no communication. contact me at tingting's tagboard. though i've not requested permission, but think she's too busy now, so her tagboard would be underutilise hehe. shhh dont tell her i said this haha. it would be temporary lah

hmm so y m i here?
feeling down n so stressed!
the event starts on the 5th, so i'm terribly busy this week...
been going meetings at HSA like going to "home" like tt, except tt "home" isnt such a sweet place to be in. went there on mon, tue and thurs. today, fri, going down again. wed didnt go coz its vesak day, else...
n coz of meetings, not been eating well or regularly.
i tink i'll have nitemares of "home" after this special project...

deadlines deadlines deadlines, endless of them. forces from so many sources: cecilia, anson, siew ern, performers, roommate etc. i feel like a deformed object.

stupid roommate have to sleep so early coz he gotta work, so i cant stay up too late lest disturbing him. so not much work done at nite. morn's productivity is low and i still have deadlines to meet!

but its not only becoz of proj tt i'm feeling down...

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believe in urself, n everything would be alrite (should be)


somebody pass the prozac...


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