this post is for my gang

someone said tt, "if ur life was fucked-up, then what abt us? r we not ur friends..."...
u r rite! u r my friends... but also my ONLY close frens
we all only get to meet during the hols, when the ozzies return to motherland for vacation. during term time, i have no fucking social life. i stay at home during wkends. tts y i look so much forward in meeting u all each time they r back. but nm, i'm used to it aredi.
i appreciate u all for being my frens. we've enjoyed the times together didnt we? i'm very grateful for that.
Thank You!

happy birthday to myself!!!
o what the heck?!
i dont celebrate my own birthdays, to me its juz any other day

here's a follow up on urs truly...

well, infection's gone! but :( fever n cough come after tt. darn it!
been dumping panadols into my head, but they only offer temporary relief.
things took a turn for the worse, feeling hot n cold at the same time
last nite was worst, got up at 7+ to switch off fan, hiding my whole self under the blanket but still shivering!!! can u believe tt?

ok i asked for it! went to med ctr to c doc. gave me stronger doses of medication. wah so many diff types to take...
running a temp averaging 38 degrees. well may have to abandon my plans for nye...

Dec 23rd was quite a bad day for me. well i went to watch LOTR3 with Eugeny n Boony. it was a fantastic show - LOTR gets better with each show; it did not disappoint. during the show, i kept hoping that the show doesnt end off so soon; i simply couldnt get enough of it hehe. it beats kill bill 1 hands down! (sorry bill, better luck next time!)

poor me had to go back to sch after the movie for ihrg training sianzzzz...
training is sianz, ending at 2+ am is worse! seeing the person u hate most in hall during training has to be the last straw! somehow, i cant seem to blend with the scrabble grp. i cant tell wats wrong, but they seemed to have something against me. further, we r sort of of the diff freqs. o and dont forget the guy whom i'm irritated by. dunno if he's such a hatable person, but to me, he's 1 hell of a SOB. he is detestable as a whole, and the sight of him juz makes me sick!

i stayed very silent watching them play the game. so silent as usual tt it feels awkward to everyone, myself included. i wanna tok but donno who to tok to as i'm not very close to them and vice versa. i took a breather outside the room, to the comm hall where some ppl were playing badminton.

by chance, edwin invited me to join in their game. i readilly, gratefully and very gladly accepted. this gives me a reason to be excused fr the room. n i've not played the game for a long time liao, the last time being 6 months ago during the last vacation break. attempts to organise the game with fellow campmates during sch term failed. i longed to play it again.

by then, i aredi started to feel something wrong with my throat. n i felt some pain on my toes while playing but ignored them. it was only after i went back to my room that i realised the skin on the toe had torn. tt nite n the nite before, i stayed awake till 5 am playing gunbound, hoping to lay a claim on the 15 mobiles required for a prize; the competition supposed to end tt very day. by then i've collected 13 but i told myself enough is enough, i'm going to sleep aredi! but alas! after staying awake for so long and past my normal sleeping time zone, i cant fall asleep. at 6+, i got up feeling frustrated but didnt go back to my game; i've aredi given up on it.

i spent most of the following day with my butt glued to my chair; clearing up stuffs in my comp as well as on my table. even after a bout of logzenges, the throat irritation wouldnt go away and seemed to get worse. i concluded tt it was the dreaded throat infection (caused by bacteria; cure by anti-biotics, a prescribed medication; when infected, prone to common complications like fever and cough; when complications set in, can be pretty potent.)

this meant i gotta c a doc. called the sch's medical centre but no one was in...
"it's christmas for goodness sake!"

that nite (christmas eve), took a cab to the doc near my home. 1st time there, a place tt opens till 12am (even on public hols! wow). was worried tt the fees might be exhorbitant since it's a privare clinic tt offers late nite services. to my pleasant surprise, it cost only $22, matching a normal private clinic's cost.

here i am back home (its christmas) writing down all these on paper first. discovered tt i have a sore butt!! haha
was it due to the badminton game? i've have not exercised for a long time aredi.
or was it due to sitting down too long at the lotr show or in my room?
i donno

but to have discomfort from head to toe, on the top, middle, and bottom parts of ur body, it couldnt get any worse eh?

Which Guilty Gear X character are you?

today is the last day of mepc...
whew! finally we've completed 5 gruelling wks of lab, project and reports.
finally our hols have "started", how ironic, when it appears to others tt hols are coming to an end
ok so i wont have to wake up early in the morn again next mon to reach the labs by 9am
no more of tt for wkdays...
no more reports, no more research
now its time for trainings (sianz)
o i... i tink i'll not get used to not waking up at 7 in the morn everyday for a while
like after exams, i would feel a sudden emptiness in myself
like i've lost a part of myself
going to sch in the morn, go through 3 hrs of lab, lunching with (some of) my project mates, going to the storage lab to collect the firing device, the bulky frame and the accessories, discussions & project work and then returning the items to the lab again
it may take some adjusting again, depending on wat i have to keep myself occupied next wk
i'll miss u frens... all the fun, laughter, lameness and sweat haha
*quotes/kou tou chan/frequently said/memorable: yi si qian qian, meh meh chi cao, ming ye, wo yao hui jia shui jiao le, hong xing da jiang, pasta cafe, tian shang tian xia, zhong ji mi ma, mech warrior, ba zua yu, *
rem our achievement, our trusty prototype, which did not let us down on the day of competition

Thank you all for the memories!
mepc 2003

whew! today is D-Day!
the day of the competition
after a month of hard work, this is the day we are working for
o yeah! our trusty catapult fired up a distance of (66.35m + hit the trees) X 2
pick up ur jaws now...

wonder wat time would i sleep tonite...
got ihrg training later... gotta rush lab report, besides log sheets, Q&A, still got 3 pages of documents summarising what we have learnt for the past 3 days..., wah lao eh.. 3 pages... how to write? sianz man...
after lab report, tomorrow still gotta pia project report
donno can make it home tomorrow anot, else its saturday liao... sianz!
still got 2 weeks of newspapers waiting for me back home hehe
then i got a birthday party to attend on sat at east coast, my shimei's 21st birthday! congrats on ur coming of age gal!
missed star awards last wk, didnt know it was showing last sun, hope to catch the repeat telecast, this sun rite?
ok early next wk's gonna be hectic...
exam results coming out as we prepare for the MEPC project competition on wed, along with IHRG on mon n tues
hope i have time to come down for IHRG as well as play my part in finalising the project. 2 days after competition would be subject registration time! 18th dec, rem the day, as i wont be free
if i still have enough energy left after tt, maybe can go out for a while...
(wanna watch infernal 3 and LOTR 3)
and suddenly i would wake up realising christmas is coming n hols r finishing...
well let's not tink abt tt now...

went to crystal jade @ jp today with my project grp. my 1st journey there since i moved to jurong. always said wanted to go there one day back then in j-camp but nv did haha. the food's not bad, tink our grp would be able to savour the likes of another restaurant of similar or higher status soon
:d

o actually there's a tot of the day for yesterday which i couldnt include due to network problem
here it goes: do not try to demagnetize a strong permanent magnet like one with the code Sm-Co

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what kills a crush?
when u discovered tt she aredi has a bf or she's targeting someone n its not u
haha
nm, crushes come n crushes go
y waste time crushing if the result's gonna be negative?
instead, losing a crush allows u to reopen ur eyes n look at the world again, unfortunately, not always a world we want or expect
there may be someone there tt u didnt notice until u lose ur current crush, but well tt's often the subplot
the thing is, when u crush on somebody, u often tend to look only at her good pts, n overlook her bad ones(unless really terrible), u r sorta blinded, all things seem nice n beautiful no matter which angle u look fr! haha
when u decided tt she's no longer ur crush, hah! u start to c the other side of her, even though its aredi been there all these while. u start to take her as a normal fren, no longer ur crush. n sometimes, u feel tt actually she's pretty bad, suddenly. this can be quite bad, since if u had treated her as a normal fren fr the start n discovered her bad pts gradually, u wont feel so unreceptive to her bad pts. on the other hand, considering opening ur eyes again, after declaring tt she's no longer a crush, to SUDDENLY c all of her bad pts tt have been there at once, it could be overwhelming sometimes. ur (good) impression of her changes a lot, drastically often, and in some extreme cases, u may even detest her. i tink what we should do sometimes, is take a step back during the crushing period, n try to look at things fr a normal fren perspective, begin to accept her flaws if u tink they havent kill ur desire yet. this may avoid future shock, but may damage some of the nice positive feelings u have for now

so whats the choice? to indulge in complete fantasy but risking damage to future frenship with her, or to regulate/moderate/restrain this fantasy, but more receptive to accepting a normal frenship with her?
what would it be?

juz came back fr supper with my close frens n from my fren's room
so late liao
tomorrow still got sch
gotta wake up at 7...
poor me haha
o well... looks like the centro birthday party's gonna be off
hmm nm

donno y like not very myself juz now, somehow like pretty restricted
feeling a bit sianz, mayb coz tomorrow still got sch n i'm still out there when i'm aredi not having enough sleep... u get wat i mean?
feel like i got lotsa things to tok abt, so much things on my mind which i wanna say. but didnt say much as the tots didnt fall into place properly...
so was there an audience pretty much of the time
felt a bit out of touch with the rest of the guys, perhaps its becoz i knew some things which they dont
hmmm
feel funny
i found their tok to be irreverent and they sounded immature
no offence mates
somehow i find something missing
many confusing tots in my mind
m i losing touch with them n in life or is it juz them?

hah quite lazy lately (or is it all the time? hahah), type 1st segment then dont wanna type liao
leave u all in suspense n all hahaha
if u really wanna know the whole of the incidents, can ask me in person ;)
well...

tok to a fren yesterday n realised the meaning of having a crush on somebody...
didnt really know wats having a crush really all abt, or should i say not knowing how it feels.
dont get me wrong, i'm not saying i'm having a crush on tt fren, although its a she.

i'm not sure if i'm getting it rite, correct me if i'm wrong, a crush is a strong lovely feeling u have towards the opposite sex even though u've juz met her a few times. u'll be interested in looking at her, watching her actions, listening to her tok etc. u feel happy n excited when she toks to u n u yearn for her company. u get worried when she's hurt and sometimes u feel like u've known her for a long time. when she's not ard, u miss her, a lot sometimes. u call out for her while u r sleeping/dreaming. everytime u tink of her, it makes u smile, and u get heartaches sometimes coz u miss her so much...
sometimes u feel tt she's the one for u, u juz want her n nothing else...


if the aforementioned is what the meaning of crush to u all too, then i gotta confess i'm a major crusher haha

...

juz came back to my hostel not too long ago... look at the time
didnt go home, came back straight from club
need to do my report nehz...

went to cheong with my pals n a few gals.
hey its the first time we as a grp cheong with the gals. but tt wasnt really the highlite haha oops
as usual we had our once-in-6-months cheonging session @ Phuture. zouk had a private function earlier on. but who cares anyway, we've come for phuture
well tonite was pretty happening, got many babes in the club
as usual we would go in pretty early so as to pay less for cover n to secure a table. wow! so many reserved tables tonite, we were unable to secure our usual location at the back of the club
nonetheless we settled for one near the dance floor.
all's going well with the chat n games
then came the thing we were waiting for:
MIDNITE MADNESS!!!
all drinks on 1-for-1
like mad dogs let out of a kennel, we consolidated our cash for some liquid pleasure
then went the games again
in no time, we were halfway through the happy hour
me n eugene decided to go on with our "royal rumble" course (consisted of Graveyard, B-52 and Waterfall if we r still alive haha)
from Steven's recommendation ("Thanks" man! it was damn strong! but i'll try it again hahah!)
we ordered Graveyard one-for-one n started to "dry" it ("Tar" if u get wat i mean)
well... the others didnt like it while i felt it tasted ok...
woah! n it was the beginning of the end, for i drank at ard 1145, i felt high all the way till ard 215!! amazing...
with the graveyard alone, i could have aredi lasted the whole nite
and so, the B-52 and the waterfall were spared hehe

darn... feel so tired now
continue tomorrow if i can rem. hehe