i am feeling very down now
many things went wrong today
and i have a project to hand in next friday
i'm tired...

haha maybe i tink too much
maybe i'm depressed
maybe i'm juz tired...

o ya forgot to add
kitty, i find u more n more cute liao leh? oops?

yeah! very happy today!
been with beautiful circles of friends whole day!
yeah got to formally know 2 of kitty's frens, pearly n cloudy (hehe hope u dont mind i call u tt)! hehe
actually know them liao, but didnt get to tok to them much
o n met many frens today!
another pearly (not the same as the one mentioned earlier) has cut her hair! n it looks great on her. she previously got a nice hairstyle liao, but now this one relly fits her! "zhan!" (chinese word "praise", tink taiwanese variety shows!)
then today got comms skills class! great news! no need to do proj!!! YEAH!!!!!!
woah tt's gonna save me much time man! CS proj took up lotsa our time last yr!
another thing is my new CS class is full of lookers!!! (urs truly is one of them hahahahhaahahahahhaha)
woah!
both guys n gals man!
wah suddenly feel like as though in an acting class or wat haha!
tink ard half the class r above average standard, while most of the rest of the class still can make it
but appearance-wise, this class has got stuffs

hmm y m i blabbering here? i'm not depressed today, shouldnt have come here in the 1st place
out of the norm today, the 1st time something happy appear here eh? heheh

the more i tink of it, the more i feel i'm not good enough
in fact i tink i'm not good enough for anybody
born with a blessed life
urs truly screwed his life up pretty badly, o wait or issit juz his mind?
o perhaps both lah
feel too useless for anybody to want me liao
hah! sometimes even i feel sorry for myself, my pathetic life, pathetic soul, pathetic body, pathetic mind, pathetic everything
damn! my growing up is such a waste of resources~ darn my parents shouldnt have given birth to me in the 1st place, i'm nothing but an expensive amoeba

hehe sometimes feel like my life mood is such a roller coaster, no, should be more like a stock market
unfortunately, i keep hitting new lows....
guess its a bearish run currently

He Is Tapping Out?


i feel like i'm giving up... give up? wat give up? i havent really done anything yet, so wat is there to give up (anyway)?
hello all... to my buddies, ck, chesty, advocate, (hmm wat's HB's nickname?), great one... hi.....
oops!! sorry ck i still havent reply to ur email, paiseh forgotten abt it after sch starts, promise to reply u ASAP k? so sorry!

so what am i contemplating abt giving up? well u guessed it!, guess any idiot would have guessed so lah haha
okok give u credit for guessing it correct k? happy now? hehehe
ok perhaps if u r too straight witted, u dont understand wat the heck i've juz type, but nm, as long as i understand can liao ;?
(juz to remind everyone, this is my blog and this is where i dump my toxic energies hehehe, so if u dont like it i also dont care, coz as long as i happy can liao, nobody read i also dont care) *argh!!!!!*

tink let me post this 1st lah, a bit hungry liao, maybe let me finish my dinner 1st then i continue
c how...
damn! feel damn exasperated n frustrated now!

too lazy to type

u know, there r many times where i wanna share my tots on this blog. full of ideas in my head. n then sometimes it happens... i am too lazy to type it out haha
yeah its true
i donno y but tts juz y
there r some interesting posts which i told myself tt i wanna share with all of u. but i didnt get on with it. like this ck's email which i type the reply a little then dont feel like typing liao. then there's this time where i have the title aredi : R THEY GONNA PLAY KURT ANGLE'S SONG?
but nv get started on it

i think my eyes look great now!! 150703 0349

today is my 1st day of hall foc. kinda tired, but not as tired as during seniors' camp. was allocated a clan to join as a senior attach but alas! donno the freshies nm, but donno the oldies too. so i know no too many body there. so sad and so lost...
but i tout to myself, what the heck!, i prob gonna be busy with my programmer stuffs
i try to blend in n blend out at the right moments hehe
played a game where everyone was assigned a no. when this no. is called, this person is supposed to hit the immediate left or right person, the next person in line beside the person being hit have to shout "ouch!", and the next person shout "orby orby!", the next person would shout another no and the so on...

to my left is a male freshie, to my right, a female freshie. it was kinda squeezy but i felt i have more space on my right.
i was no. 15, and i was called early on... so without much thinking, i raised my right hand n land it down on the thigh of the freshie on my right.
"PAK!" (oops!) it was so darn loud, everyone was in shock n started jeering at me for hitting a lady so hard. i had to apologize profusely to the crowd (and apologized to her too, she said nm, heng ah...). i didnt mean to hit so hard one loh, but somehow it happened to be hard n loud hahaha and wat a nice sound the hit sounded too, like a thunderous clap, juz one solid sound, nice n loud! hehe (dont say i xing zai le huo hor, i really didnt mean it)
nonetheless, the game went on



juz went out for supper with ck n chesty. went to chesty's hall to look for him. saw someone there. toked a bit, then forgot to ask for her no.! o asked her to join us for supper too, but she declined

now juz finished my bath, took a look at myself in the mirror and wow! i've got great looking eyes now ;)